Just some random tumblr rp things.
After I read some points from this post, I began to think about my experiences while rping in here.
It’s not as beautiful as you might think, tbh.
I have this experience that I asked one person if they want to continue the threads because I’ve replied them in case they missed it, they said okay you can send the links, and I did, but afterwards they just…seems to completely ignore me until now. They still like and reblog my post, but they seems…quiet. I tried to send ask a few times, they never responds, like ever. I did this a few times and oh God I know tumblr message is such a dick, but they don’t seem to answer any of them so I just…yeah okay, maybe they don’t want me to interrupt them or they got a lot of messages already. It’s the worst kind of feeling, tbh, and until now I’m not sure about their feeling about me now.
It’s not a healthy feeling or emotion, I know. But I can’t help and wonder if they actually dislike me? I’m not sure. I know I have a lot of better things to do than thinking about it over and over again, though.
It’s, well, idk maybe I am thinking too much. I don’t want to look obsessed with this rp thing. It’s only rp, I shouldn’t make it into a serious business.
Probably this is my bad point, I can’t accept rejections. I get sad easily if people reject me, even if I don’t even know who they really are. I don’t think I’ll ever meet them in person in my whole life too, I probably will forget them in a few years or maybe when I retired entirely from tumblr.
This shouldn’t be a serious business, but I am making this a serious business and I am ashamed of myself. At some point, probably that’s what making rp in tumblr become more and more exhausting for me.